Dear Daughters

To My Girls,                                                                                                       Jan. 3rd, 2013

You are 6 and 5 right now and I want so badly for you to always stay this age.  You are both so in love with Barbie and the Furbies you just got for Christmas.  Clothes, sparkles and make-up.  Oh to be so innocent and see everything in life with such wonder.  Right now you are eating dinner, it's a short order cook night as I am in desperate need of a grocery store trip.  Hot dogs and pizza rolls were the requests and I am happy to oblige.  Kale, you go back to school on Tuesday, 5 days from now.  Today that feels like an eternity and on Tuesday I will be so sad to see you go back.  I am ready for a "normal" day again but will miss the laughter of you and Dee playing together.  She will miss you too.  I am so thankful that you are such good friends.  You don't know it now but you will treasure each other someday.  I can't imagine what life would be like without a sister.  Mine are my best friends.  But you know that.  There are so many things I wish I could tell you.  So many hurts I have felt that I wish I could spare you from.  But I know you have to learn a lot of those same lessons on your own.  This has become very random so I am going to go and have some dinner.  Love you more than most.

Mom

Happy New Year - I'm determined to be happy......

My little girls and me waiting to bring in the new year.

2013 is here.  WOW.  New Year's always makes me reflect.  I take that back, I've been doing a lot of reflecting over the last month.  A month ago I turned 30, YIKES, right??  Anyways, I've been thinking back  back over how much my life has changed from where I expected it to go when I finished high school.  I was a horse crazy 18 year old who planned to spend the rest of her life training and showing horses and a husband and kids were NOWHERE on my radar.  

He was the love of my life.

And he led to me to where I am today.  Well okay, I guess I can give God a little of the credit since He was obviously the one setting everything into place but Gator was a big piece of the puzzle.  Where am I today?  I really don't know, right now I am a stay at home mom(13 year old step-daughter, 6 year old daughter, 5 year old daughter), a wife, a crochet, a bunny enthusiast(just wait until I show you some pictures of some of my Netherland Dwaf bunnies).......

I couldn't make you wait long, they are just too cute not to share, okay where was I?  Oh right, I am trying to start up a crochet business and trying to figure out what God wants me to be doing.  Two years ago God told me "something BIG is coming" and I keep grabbing at everything that I can see coming that even resembles something great only to be let down time after time when so many things don't develop into anything.  I'm trying not to get frustrated, I'm trying to be patient, I'm trying to have faith.  I know there is a plan, I would just like to get to take a peek at what the plan is.  More to come.